The "Drama" of Documentary - pt.1

A few steps back, a giant leap forward. Such is the ongoing drama of my life.

It seems as though every time I make that huge commitment and decide on characters for a project ,there is this disconnect that happens. Wish I could see into the minds of these folks because I'm assuming they go through a sort of "honeymoon-esque" bliss -- first the build-up of excitment: "what a cool project!" & "this would be such a wicked experience!" & "I don't want to get my hopes up but I'd really like to participate. Wonder what the likelihood is?", their imaginations run wild at the possibilities... they rationalize that they shouldn't get too interested at risk of disappointment....

And then I make the call. I let them know they are exactly what I'm looking for.... They are excited, motivated, grateful... And, what takes place next, without fail, is the communication lapses.

Perhaps they feel a sense of relief or of conquering...and now it's time to shift gears and tackle other challenges or resume other battles they currently face. Maybe they feel that they don't need to be in constant touch or aggressively selling themselves to me anymore because the battle's won?

Whatever it is, it's quite nerve-racking. Like I've said before, I'm a worrywart.... with the physical distance between me and my stories, I feel like silence is deadly and my only way to keep the connection I was able to make when we sat face to face.

So I wait.... and try to preoccupy myself with new challenges/goals.

Such as... speaking with SIR MIX-A-LOT's rep and getting him interested in this little film. Yes, he's INTERESTED! And the way I'm hoping to incorporate him should be a lot of fun. Nope, not going to share just yet in case it doesn't come together. But it's a very exciting development and how could I NOT incorporate the man who created the song that most openly and non-metaphorically proclaimed that a fat ass is indeed a phat ass? It's a part of my childhood -- one of the key anthems we as kids felt inclined to learn and sing along with word-for-word. A fun, silly, party song that didnt provoke huge controversy.

Mix's rep asked me if I had gotten down to the tune in the clubs and I said I certainly got down to it in my parent's basement... :) He got a kick out of that!

Like I said -- 5 steps backwards, a huge spring forward.... keeps you on your toes if nothing else..