Wow, readers of this blog must think I'm such a grumpy person with the amount of anxiety-filled posts I've had lately.
If anything, the goal of my negative emails is to deter any future filmmakers from making documentaries, through experiencing my stories of just how darn hard it is to make one! (kidding) It's reality -- the struggles and roadblocks make the rewards that much sweeter, etc. etc. (chin up, kids!)
Which leads me to my latest "drama". You'll remember that I just locked my main characters last week.
Yesterday, I got on the phone to confirm some scheduling with one of the characters. And... I was told by the receptionist that said-woman was no longer an employee of the company! As in, the company that celebrates the booty is still open for business, but my charming, young, bootyful spokesmodel is history.
Not the greatest piece of news to get, and completely unexpected.
Well, maybe not completely unexpected....I was having some doubts. Let's just say that the little voice inside of me, that squirmy part of the belly that seems to squirm only when it has an important message to get all the way up to my brain.... well, I might have been guilty of quieting it in the past few weeks.
Unreturned phonecalls, communicating solely with ONE of several partners in the company..... there were red flags for sure. But, trying to change my worrywart/pessimist ways (which may turn out to be a life-long mission), I soldiered on.
And then the reality hit.
So here I'm scrambling. Knowing that there is a fair bit of manipulation that happens behind-the-scenes in documentaries, I can construct a new reality with this company, seeing as what they do is just so wickedly cool. But I also like to set certain boundaries which would otherwise push things into the "reality-tv" realm of reality in my opinion. The organic link and storyline have been uprooted. And now I've got a nice puzzle to sort out this weekend.... plant some new seeds in this dreary time in November.
It will work out.... (**grinning through gritted teeth**)... I know it will.....
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